I Don't Always Blog

It has been some time since I have posted anything on this blog.  To those of you who have been checking in on me, "I'm truly sorry."  And, unfortunately I don't mean that apology as a promise of more consistent posting.  The truth is that I don't always blog.

I very often sit in my chair and think stare at this screen trying to be brilliant, spiritual, wise, and insightful.  And honestly, most of the time I am none of those things.  Occasionally I have something worth sharing.  Once in a while I am down right creative and inspired.  But most of the time, I stare at this screen  and fall short.

Sometimes, feeling guilty for not blogging, I troll other sights for some inspiration.  "Things Christians Like" always makes me laugh and go "hmmmm".  "Crazy Tyler Stanton" too.  I keep thinking that I just need a nugget to go on and I'll get inspired.  Sometimes I think that I will just completely plagiarize, changing enough words and phrases to pass as my own work.  And sometimes I just plain get caught up in the stories of other bloggers and loose the desire to do anything on my own blog.

Once in a while I get some inspiration of something to share while I am driving, reading, meditating, or having a discussion and I want to run to the computer to get my thoughts on the screen while the inspiration is hot.  I do have a few drafts started from those moments.  But mostly unfinished.  Other times, I'm in the middle of something and that inspiration doesn't ever get translated into a blog post.

Inspiration.  It is such a necessary thing.  It is necessary for all of life.  See Webster's definition below.

Inspiration: "a divine influence directly and immediately exerted upon the mind or soul."


I am wrestling with my inner worth.  I don't want to strive for brilliance, wisdom, insight, or the appearance of spirituality.  I want to know God and be inspired by Him for all that I am and all that I do.  It shall be my quest... to know Him more.

And I suspect the more I know Him, the more inspired I shall be.  And the more inspired I become, the more plethoric this blog will be.  ("Plethoric:"  there's an inspiring word!)