I very often sit in my chair and think stare at this screen trying to be brilliant, spiritual, wise, and insightful. And honestly, most of the time I am none of those things. Occasionally I have something worth sharing. Once in a while I am down right creative and inspired. But most of the time, I stare at this screen and fall short.
Sometimes, feeling guilty for not blogging, I troll other sights for some inspiration. "Things Christians Like" always makes me laugh and go "hmmmm". "Crazy Tyler Stanton" too. I keep thinking that I just need a nugget to go on and I'll get inspired. Sometimes I think that I will just completely plagiarize, changing enough words and phrases to pass as my own work. And sometimes I just plain get caught up in the stories of other bloggers and loose the desire to do anything on my own blog.
Once in a while I get some inspiration of something to share while I am driving, reading, meditating, or having a discussion and I want to run to the computer to get my thoughts on the screen while the inspiration is hot. I do have a few drafts started from those moments. But mostly unfinished. Other times, I'm in the middle of something and that inspiration doesn't ever get translated into a blog post.
Inspiration. It is such a necessary thing. It is necessary for all of life. See Webster's definition below.
Inspiration: "a divine influence directly and immediately exerted upon the mind or soul."
I am wrestling with my inner worth. I don't want to strive for brilliance, wisdom, insight, or the appearance of spirituality. I want to know God and be inspired by Him for all that I am and all that I do. It shall be my quest... to know Him more.
And I suspect the more I know Him, the more inspired I shall be. And the more inspired I become, the more plethoric this blog will be. ("Plethoric:" there's an inspiring word!)